Things are not going good in my relationship but it’s okay because life is bizarre and I’m probably gonnna young anyway
i work in a small em3rgency departm3nt in my city now. i just started last week, same hospital I was at but just The e*r part of it. I’m very excited, it’s the reason why I got into nurs|ng in the first place, Is to work in That environment. it’s where I’m most naturally suited, these people I’m around now are so smart and quick but also mean and harsh and upfront. Like me. I love the pace, I love being on my feet, I love the range of low to high acuity, I love always being busy, I love the wild shit that comes through the door. I want to have the knowledge and ability to actually help people who are about to imminently pass, instead of just getting them when they’re already stabilized. I love the high of adrenaline, when your heart races fast and your breath quickens and your thoughts become clear and narrow. It’s a unique high. Anyway. I’m very excited and I hope I have what it takes to make it there
sometimes I think that Alla*h made her and I from the same clay, split us apart, and then placed us on these winding paths to find each other.
i swear to god herself that I have loved her since the first thought of me floated through my mother’s mind.
we’ve all really lost the plot here
I told my gf that she’s prettier than lupita one time and she accused me of lying!!!! Can you believe that??? It’s true
update: I like my job a lot especially the people I work with. I’m learning a lot. I make a lot of mistakes, one big one so far and the others small. I never leave work feeling like it’s been a good day or I’m good at what I do, but everyone says that’s normal for the first year. It takes a year to know what’s even going on and then another year to get proficient. I’m competent though, and I can keep people safe which is all that’s really asked of me at this point.
Night shifts are alright. I sleep all the time on my days off. It’s weird being awake when everyone else is sleeping. I’m hoping when I move there will be more things to do at night so I won’t feel so isolated. I like the money and the workflow of night shift, especially being a new grad. Even if things are crazy for the first 6 hours of my shift, I’ll have the 2-4am lull to catch up. You don’t usually get that on days
I’m moving into my own apartment this month, a block away from work. God willing, I mostly won’t have to drive ever which is a great blessing.
this was 9 months ago and now I’m a ch_arge n_urse on nights and about to be trained to another higher acui|ty un|t and it’s amazing how fast it’s been and how everyone is right, it takes a year to know what’s going on. I feel good about what I do, I love it
my girlfriend can handle how mean I am, she’s more blunted to the things I say with bite to them because that’s what we’re used to, that’s how our mothers talk to us. she gets mean too, just like her mom. And my mom. but I’m more equipped to talk back to her too. we’re similar, but just different enough that every time I talk to her, or laugh with her, or listen to her music, I experience something new. not many people can handle how I am, but she can. I really love her a lot
I stole bleach wipes from work
is it weird if a bi person continues to daydream about sleeping with a different gender than the person they’re with? It seemed way less weird when I was thinking about lesbians while still dating a guy vs watching straight sex now while dating a girl
am I bi because I have a high sex drive or do I have a high sex drive because I’m bi